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It's about time I posted this.

HAHA. Okay, this budak here is going through quite a tough time right now. However, it's okay now la. Hee. Oh oh oh, you still owe me hazelnut milk teaaaaa! (: Bleah. And and and, commented and liked your FB wall post already (the one that you told me too). Yay, I rock.

You're cool, you're good. And you're my good friend ;D HAHA.

I envision an Earth; where all shackles melt away, leaving footprints of antiquity and evanescent grays. Where I can set sail on any sea. My heart as my compass, and I am free. I envision soaring, seeing pyramids as dust. Iron bars bend with tumultous winds and the bonds begin to rust. When I spread my wings aloft all of the trees, my heart as my compass. Then I'm free. The feather is dancing on the paper, catching memories made of red ink. The fundaments of my existence, the repulsive fragments made of mistakes. Pain, my old companion, my eternal friend. We live our final moments together. For these pages will be your den and this ink shall be your body. Farewell, conscious nightmare. For now I am free.

Can you feel the stars? I wish I knew the love, I felt a fire in my soul and I longed for someone. To smile, to laugh, to be with me. And I ask him to show me beauty, he shows me space. Like the fool I am, I cannot tell what he means till he tells me, "space, silence, surreal" And I pondered his words till I saw the heavens. The lights danced and knew not the time. Turning to him, I asked him to describe space in one word. And he replied, "Freedom".

Through the hard times and the good, through the joy and pain, the laughs and cries, the tears in our eyes that smile and the grim frowns. We've always been just best friends, best friends just you and I. We put each other before another, as if we were sister and brother. How much I care for you, I could never say. You could scale the length of the stars and I'd never be the same. You're my best friend but you're more than just a friend. You understand me like no one else could, you make me smile when I'm down. You've helped me turn my life around, you're always there when I need a friend. We help each other with our troubles, we'll stick together through thick and thin, we'll help each other to the end. We've had our fights, but never said goodbye, and hopefully we never will. I can never stay mad at you for long and even if I could I know I never would. 'Cause we're brother and sister. No matter what the tests say, no matter what happens, no matter what we go through, we're best friends forever. And brother and sister too.

You're always there for me when I need you. You were the first one to come. You were everything to me. Gosh, I love you.

When you feel like you're about to break and you think you've made your last mistake. Your heart is pounding with rejection, thinking you're the furthest from perfection. When people push and pull at you, and you really don't know what to do. Your eyes get glossy, about to tear, your lips quiver, your mascara smears. When the others ignore your pain, and you're caught out in the rain. A fake smile to hide the hurt, just look down and stare at your shirt. When you had a quarrel or misunderstanding, and no one has an ear to lend; in the mirror there's someone looking back at you, someone smiling who sees right through. The pain is building, the tears as well. The red puffs around your eyes swell. Paint a picture with your rage and throw away the empty cage. Perhaps the sky will clear soon, just as soon as the sun appears. Take a walk to adjust your mind and perhaps the pain will fade. When you're on the brink of disappointment and everything seems like a chore, take a deep breath, smile and think about the ones you love. When you feel like dying, when life seems not worth living, think of your loved ones and think again.

Finally updated my blog. Won't be active that much. Have to concentrate on school, yo! Arghhhhh. Sleeeeeeepy ): Okaay, have to get back to work (: Byebye people.

HIATUS?!

Pesantren Kilat 2009.

Assalamualaikum.

Pesantren Kilat 2009. Filled with so many memories and made new friends. More good memories, than bad ones of course. New friends were made and bonds were tightened. Learnt a lot of things, realised who I really am, tried to change and everything else. One week of Pesantren Kilat, oh yes. Missing all of my friends from the Pesantren already. Haish. I'm missing everyone and everything already.

I miss waking up at 3.30am every morning, qiyam(ing) and praying Subuh. After praying Subuh, did our exercise and eat breakfast after that. After breakfast, rest and after that pray Dhuha. After Dhuha, had our Tasawuf class and after that, eating lunch. After lunch, pray Zuhur and had Fiqh class after that. Pray Asar and had our exercise after that. Dinner and pray Maghrib, after that had Tauhid class. Isyak and Halaqah Usrah, after that supper. And Sleep. I miss that schedule. Haish. I miss my schedule, and everything else. I miss Ustaz! ):

To my Power Rangers, thanks for everything.

Liyana; you've been the one closest to me during this whole week. We had gone through everything together and I really appreciate whatever you've done for me. We endured every thick times and we appreciated every thin times we had together. HAHA. Thanks for layaning all my merepekness okay. I know I very merepek always! (: We went through every thick or thin together. You've been a great friend and I hope that we would still keep in contact although Pesantren is long over (:

Diyana; you junior! Hee. Thanks for being there for me when I need you. Thanks for layaning all my merepekness and annoyingness every time. HAH. Sorry if I did anything wrong to you or something. Don't mean it. Oh well, hope we still keep in touch kay! (:

Hidayah; you another junior! Thanks for being the budak who is always the most conscious about herself and her surroundings. Cute la. HAHA. Thanks for always layan-ing all my merepekness and annoyingness. HAHA. Keep in touch with me kay (:

Nasuha; you budak! The person that talks to me all night and can't sleep (: I really appreciate all those talks you had with me at night and layaning my kentalism and merepekness also. HAHA. Well, although you were having a fever for 2/3 days, you are still there for me. Even if you're sick, you still made your presence felt in our group. Keep in contact! (:

We should conference more oftennnnnnnnnnnnn! ;D

Muhammad Ihsan Sabri;

You boy! Thanks for always being there for me (: You are one of my closest friends there in camp and helped me alot in every single thing. I didn't get to say thank you for everything, so I want to say it now. Thanks for everything, Ihsan Sabri. Thanks for layaning my merepekness, my annoyingness, my kentalness, my cengengness and everything else lah. Thanks for always ensuring that I'm always taking care of myself. Hee, thanks for ensuring that I always take my medication, although I don't really take them usually. Except for the time when I went 7-11 to buy Panadol cause you told me too. HAHA (: To make it short, thanks for everything you've done la! ;D You also must take care of yourself! Don't sleep on the floor again! HAH. Remember to take your medication! Don't think you so strong ah! (: HAHA. Oh well, it seems as if you won't have your grapes la ): And I won't have my jambak of bananas! ): Tkpe la, we shall still text each other okay! ;D

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for the way I've been acting lately, I'm well aware I haven't been acting the same as I did a few years ago. I'm sorry for my mood swings. I'm sorry for screaming profanities at the top of my lungs, crying myself to sleep and the hours of giggling. Really, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for the other night, Remember? You picked me up from a gutter at three in the morning. I could barely stand, and all my words were slurred. I yelled as you lifted me into the car, I clawed for my friends. You were patient and calm, even though I've drank more than you ever have.

I'm sorry for that time when you caught me sneaking out the window. The look on your face startled me; I'd never seen anyone so furious before. I'm sorry for admitting that that was definitely not the first time I'd been out my window, too.

I'm sorry I'm not the top student at school. I try my hardest, really, I do. I guess I'm just not focused enough, or maybe I'm not as smart as you think I am.

I'm sorry that I ignore you. I'm sorry I spend my weekends with my friends. I'm sorry I block you out of my life. I'm sorry you don't know the names of my friends, or my favourite bands. I'm sorry you don't know the way I'm feeling or even the way I like to wear my hair, this is all my fault though; not yours.

I'm sorry that I'm not your little girl anymore, Daddy. Mummy, I'm sorry I can't be your little princess anymore, either. I'm growing up and I think that sometimes you forget that.

Tonight, you asked me how my day was. Fine, I told you, which we all know was a lie. So, you really want to know? Well, for starters, I failed my Maths test. He ignored me when I pass him in the hall. I thought we were past all those immaturities, but obviously he thought differently. I was yelled at by teachers and ignored by friends. I watched myself cry black tears tonight, tears dripping down my pallid cheeks. I ran a hand through my matted hair and cursed. Ever since I was born, I began to die - I'd never realised that until now.

Sometimes I want to get in a car and drive far away from everyone and everything. I want to disappear, and I want people to miss me when I'm gone. Am I asking for too much? I don't really know.

Slowly, I can see myself fall. I have dreams where I jump off the jetty down at the beach. Remember when you used to hold me against the railing, and I pretended that I was a bird? In my dreams, I'm a bird. I'm a bird and I fly. But my wings didn't work. They break as I leap and I hit the icy water below.

Just like this dream, I'm drowning. I'm drowning and I don't know how to be saved. I don't know if it's possible. People say this is just a phase. It will end eventually and we will grow up. I hope they're right. I really, truly, hope so.

I don't expect you to understand. I just want you to listen, please. I really am sorry for everything. I don't know if you'll believe me, but I love you, I do.

I'M BACK FROM GOLD COAST, AUSSIE! (: I KNOW YOU PEOPLE MISS MEH! (:

At the airport & flight.

:) --> At the airport, typical kecohness. At the flight, wah! I was seating behind this blonde guy and he's from Harvard Law University! OMG, and he is like quite cute! HAHA. Surprisingly is that, he can speak KOREAN fluently! Which is superduper awesome ttm! (: He was talking to the tourists in Korean. Haish, awesome ttm. I like.

): --> The flight's food was not that appetizing to me ): Sedih. HAHA. And I couldn't sleep ):

At SEA World.

:) --> Jet Rescue Rollercoaster was awesome! :D Nice. Oooh, the ice cream was awesomely wow! ;D I like. HAHA. The dolphins show was quite cool uh. HAHAH. Oh well, the shows were pretty okay. We watched two shows uh. One with the seals and one with the dolphins (:

): --> The whole place was SCORCHING HOT.

At hotel.

:) --> The television have Nickelodeon and it's all the awesome shows that I like. Ned's Declassified School Survival Guide, True Jackson, iCarly and Drake&Josh. OMG la, I like :) The air-con is very cold, I like. The toilet is nice, I like also. The bed is very bouncy and comfortable to sleep in, I like this the most. YAY.

): --> The hot water is TOO hot. I don't like.

At Tangalooma.

:) --> The beach is awesomely beautiful ;D Oh, I can see the beautiful sunset from the beach. It's damn nice, I like.

): --> At night, the wind is superduper chilly. Nearly fell sick. Oh, the waves are too strong too! And the water is DAMN cold. Not to my liking.

At Movie World.

:) --> The show was amazing. All the drifts and everything else. The Scooby Doo Rollercoaster was damn killer sia. It was in the dark all along and the turns are just so damn sharp turns(!) HAHA. Oh well, it was awesome. And I got another ice cream :D

): --> The price there is expensive! Money fly away seh! ): Ish.

At Dream World.

:) --> The thrill rides are awesome! ;D OMG, I like. HAHA. There are 6 thrill rides all together. All of them are like so damn heart-wrenching sia. HAHA. But still, the rides are awesomely nice and cool (:

): --> The price there is also expensive. Oh, mummy don't allow me to buy the 'Superman' shirt ): Sedih.

During Jalan-Jalan(s).

:) --> Beautiful souvenirs and cheap too! :D Cool guys walking on the streets without their shirts on, bringing their surfboards. HAHAH! :D

): --> The wind is very chilly. Me no likey ):

At Paradise Country Farm.

:) --> I can see small small koalas and big big kangaroos! (: Cute tau! And we can feed the kangaroos. They will lick your hand la seh.

): --> The place is very smelly all because of the smell of the animals la ): Ish.

At Harbour Town.

:) --> More cheap cheap and nice souvenirs! And there are many many factory outlets. I like ;D

): --> Not enough time to go to every shop! ):

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After that day, it was free day for all of us. So yeah, went to do some last minute shopping and started doing the packing. Well, I didn't pack la. Mummy and dadee packed la, duh. Then, after that waited for the bus. The bus was actually supposed to come at 9pm, but then waited for godknowshowlong. Actually, waited for around 45mins until the bus come. HAHA. So yeah, 2 hours journey to reach the airport. HAHA. So well, finally reached the airport ah. Waited for our flight. The airport was very very very empty. So me and brother played with the trolleys and stuff. HAHA. Awesome.

OKAY LA, BYE. HAHA (:

Currently waiting at the waiting hall to enter into the plane. Hope to get a safe journey to and fro. Pray for me. Love you guys (:

Amin.

Did a couple of animations using Kem Obor pics. Awesome ttm. Up there, is one of them ;D I like.

p.s. Will be back on the 13th of December. In the mean time, miss meh ;P

xx. Fitriah.

I'm not packing anything. Let mummy do the packing. I'm lazy -.- Haish. Well, so am going to Australia tomorrow. Can see all those kangaroos and koalas and everything else. If I'm lucky, perhaps can see monkeys! HAHHA.

So, promised A'tikah(!) and Nisa(!) to buy for them something. HAHA, Hana also want! Alamak, that girl ah! Suddenly masok chorus! HAHA, well. Who else want me to buy anything? (: If I got enough money, I buy la for you all eh! ;D Thank You Thank You.

I miss you lovee ):

1 MORE DAY TO AUSTRALIA! :DD

SURFERS PARADISE! HERE I COME! :DD

Tomorrow, I'll be lying to you through a clenched jaw, prepared for you to notice this amongst other nervous ticks. I want to be found out when I say I don't miss you, when I say I don't need you, or love you. I want you to know what I'm saying when I'm not saying anything. Tomorrow, I'll be talking about nothing at the top of my lungs and you'll be ignoring me. Sound waves will be crashing on empty shores with no one there to greet them and the sand will get between my fingers and in my hair. I won't be able to get rid of this feeling for days. And I'll care even when I know I shouldn't. Tomorrow I'll sleep too late since the echo of the alarm clock at 7.10 am gives me panic attacks. I'll forget that we're crashing through the universe while standing still and I'll pretend like I'm not going anywhere. Tomorrow I'll wake up and take four aspirins instead of one and walk around with shaking hands all day, unable to do the things I've been meaning to do. I'll text you from a block away, fingers stumbling across the keys, instead of talking to you face to face so that our hearts can keep their distance. Tomorrow you'll find some other girl with a three syllable name and you'll be spouting i love you(s) to her. You'll speak mouthfuls and never get tired of talking. You won't live in this awkward silence with rooms crowded with quiet and me. Tomorrow you'll be three states away with your new love and I'll be too tired to sleep without you. Tomorrow, I'll miss you more and I'll be telling you the truth.

Haish. I miss you lovee ):

I MISS YOU ):

Went out with cousins yesterday. HAH. Thought that I was late, suddenly that minah is later than me -.- Wah seh. So then, we went straight to Bugis uh. And it was damn damn early, okay! It was only around 11am like that. So, we went to Bugis Junction first. Went to survey all the shops at Bugis Junction ah. Bought a watch there. Haish. Waste money only seh, but well wtv la. Still, the watch is damn nice okay (: I like. So, after that. We entered each and every shop like maniacs and made the clothes kinda like a mess. HAHAH (: Fun pe seh. Then, we went to Iluma. Nampak Comics Connection, then Syahirah terus semangat ah. She go enter the place. HAHA, I also enter la, follow her. Kan tengah loaded, so yeah. Bought 2PM's Junsu handphone chain and lanyard! I was searching for lanyards all over, so when I saw it at Comics Connection, cekup ah! (: I like. Rainbow yknw! ((: So, kinda wasted my money. But who cares, right? Ish, I like.

So then, waited for Kak Iffah @ Iluma. After meeting her, went to Bugis Village. Cari kan Syahirah her shirt, then since mummy ask me to buy a freaking pink shirt, so yeah. I bought it uh. The colour is like the magenta shirt like that. HAHA (: Well, after that we just walk around the whole damn Bugis Village. Wanted to buy more shirts, but don't want to waste money la. Oh, we saw a few shades and tried them on. Awesome shades sia, cool shutter shades. I like. Got turquoise seh! Nice colour (: Kay, wtv. Sheesh. So then, we just walked around like nobody's business. Eheh. Quite fun actually. Awesome seh. It has been a long time since we went out together.

Hms, after that went home ah. HAHA. Wanted to watch Singapore Idol with family but then followed Ulfa and family jalan-jalan. So well, at first we bought stationeries for Aunty Bell's work uh. After that, we went to buy Macs to eat during our karaoke session. HAHA (: So, went to Cash Karaoke Studio with Aunty Bell and family ah. So yeah, like crazy seh. We karaoke from 8pm all the way to 12am. Whoo. Awesome shits. Although didn't get to watch Singapore Idol, I knew what happen anyway. Got commentator for me mah! HAHA ;D *ehem*Nisa!*ehem* Heehee.

So yeah, Charles was out but I still think he's quite okay (: I like his beatboxing though ((:

2 MORE DAYS TO AUSTRALIAAAAAA! :D

Going out with Syahirah and maybe Kak Iffah today. Meeting them @ 10. And shoots, I haven't bathe -.- Arh, hell.

Downloaded new songs. Fck, loving it like crazy.

Handphone is pissing me off. Bah.

3 more days to Australiaaaaaaaaaaa! :DD

Ish, can't wait. Can't wait.

Kay, bye.

Ring Ding Dong Ring Ding Dong. (:

BEAST; B2ST! ;D

I'm heart sick, heal me, be crazy, can't let you go
Sad love song, my love's gone, please baby, don't go far
So beast

Down, down, we gotta get down, down, down, we gotta get down
Down, down, we gotta get down, I want ya, come to me, girl
Down, down, we gotta get down, down, down, we gotta get down
Down, down, we gotta get down, I want ya, come to me, girl

Niga tteonan jarie seupeumi gadeukhae
Naman dugo tteona beorimyeon nan eotteokhae
Shigani jinagado ni eolguri jakku tteo olla
Meoriga binggeul binggeul doneunde

Eojega majimak kiss, neol jabji mothan nae miss
Modeunge kkumi gil please, nan geunyang babo baboga dwin geot gata
Sorichyeo sorichyeo bulleo butjapgo butjapgo shipeodo
Hey, hey, hey, girl, dorawa jweo please, my hate girl

Amuri saeng gakhaedo maldo andwae, bad girl
Jakkuman ni saenggage michyeo michyeo, bad girl
Tteonaji mallago nege sorichyeodo
Dwi dora bojido anhneun, bad girl

G-O-N-E niga tteonani jal gadeon shigyedo stop gwaenhi
Nae gwieseo deullineun like our story, so sick
Hanttaeneun my, my lady niga eobseo ureo nan daily
Ajik ni jarineun biweo dulge girl C-O-M-E

Miweohan ji harumane geuriweojyeo
Ni saenggage nae eolguri nunmullo beonjyeo
Neol butjabeuryeo hamyeon neo ege daga galsurok deo
Naegeseo meolli meolli ganeunde

Dashi dolligin neomu nujeo borin geot gatae
Ni moksori ga naegeseo jakku meoreo jineunde
Sorichyeo sorichyeo bulleo butjapgo butjapgo shipeodo
Hey, hey, hey, girl, dorawa jweo please, my hate girl

Amuri saeng gakhaedo maldo andwae, bad girl
Jakkuman ni saenggage michyeo michyeo, bad girl
Tteonaji mallago nege sorichyeodo
Dwi dora bojido anhneun, bad girl

Yeotaekkeot niga haetdeon modeun mal
Hansungan modeun geda geojitmal
Ni mameul dwi dolliryeo halsurok
Naegeseo han georeumsshik meoreojyeo ganeun neo

Amuri saeng gakhaedo maldo andwae, bad girl
Jakkuman ni saenggage michyeo michyeo, bad girl
Tteonaji mallago nege sorichyeodo
Dwi dora bojido anhneun, bad girl

Down, down, we gotta get down, down, down, we gotta get down
Down, down, we gotta get down, na honjaman tto seulpeo hae
(naege dorawajweo)
Down, down, we gotta get down, down, down, we gotta get down
Down, down, we gotta get down, I want ya, come to me, girl

Oh shoots, I'm getting crazy over this group. Argh.

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY, WOMAN! :D

Okay, sorry for the late late late wish kays. Although I wished you on FB already! So well yeah. Happy 14th Birthday. May ALLAH bless you and your family always. Hope you are able to go through another two more years of secondary school life and be happy always :) Thanks for being a great friend whom I just know this year. HAHA, thanks for making me addicted back to Korean Drama! Seriously, you're one of my close friends in Perdaus and I'm really glad that I'm able to meet you and befriend you. Have a wonderful birthday and be happy always (:

Oh oh oh, any more dramas to recommend me?! ;D See you around, lovee.

xx, Fitriah! :D

Reality. Yet when the dream is done, you see there is nothing but reality. Cold and harsh neutrality. Finality. When looking up at the sunlit sky, In a world where only birds can fly. You realise your hopes were much too high. Deny. And when you see you are on your own, You will carve a heart right out of stone. The hardest heart you have ever known. Bemoan. I sincerely wish that you were here, to brush away all this fear. And substitute it with something clear. Frontier. I remember when you were by my side, And in you every though I could confide. Why did you choose for your thoughts to hide? Divide. Before I realized it, my love was gone. For I could no longer be your unfeeling pawn. And we finally reached the dusk of our eternal dawn. Foregone. But not soon after I began to fret. Have you been captured because of my foolish bet? Devoured by some unknown threat? Regret. Yes, I wish you were here with me for one more go at fantasy. An escape from this mortality. Reality.

Kem Obor November 2009! :D

First day:

Awkward day for me and Aqilah since we don't really know Irene and Hana. So, it was more of a like hello-how-are-you-get-to-know-you-more kinda day. Reached the place damn early, since daddy sent. Charged the camera at the power point at SPH. HAHA, tak tahu malu -.- The first day was rather dry. It was just presentations, talks and technical stuff. Being in the super air-coned room which is freezing cold. So yeah, and we got to see some schools who have very pro Malay Language and who can talk very the cheem. Seriously, it's like 'woah' cheem. And oh, lose any hope of winning anything. Didn't even know what it was in the first place.So, yeah. Felt like falling asleep but cannot because it's so freezing in there and didn't bring a jacket. So yeah, the day was kinda draggy. dry and sleepy.

Second day:

The second day was where we were all up and moving! :D Met up early with Aqilah to discuss questions about our activities for the day. So yeah, went to Science Centre. Went to the Body Worlds' exhibition and I can't upload those pics taken there on FB and my blog as there should be no photography allowed. However, we're media people, so we're allowed la. HAHAHA :) I think the exhibitions there are damn cool! Seriously, I feel kinda creeped out as it's like real bodies?! Which were cast in plaster or whatsoever. But it's creepy! And guess what, Aqilah didn't knew it until we were out! -.- Wonderful. So then, we interviewed people and I snapped some awesome peekchas :) Aqilah interviewed this Singaporean PR woman. She came with her son, who is very annoying. Seriously. I played with him in the exhibition place there! He made me damn dizzy. Kept on going round and round. HAHA :)

After that, went back to SPH. Interviewed Kunjung Whitaker. The person who won 2nd for Anugerah, if you don't know her. A very bubbly and jovial character :) Her voice is really very powerful and she gives very good answers. "I like to see beautiful people. I love beauty. But Botox is scary, so NO!" said by her. HAHAHA. She is really damn awesome. So well, got to snap alot of pictures of her :) She's really pretty yknw. HAHAH, honoured ah can meet her! :D So well, then after that, went home la. Tiring day yknw, went home then knocked out straightaway.

Third day:

This day is the most brain-taxing day. Seriously. Finally able to be in the same train as that Aqilah. Not like the day before, where we took different trains and just waited for each other at City Hall -.- So yeah. We still arrive early. So then, waited for Irene and Hana. When we saw them, straight away sat together and discussed about our newspapers, which don't seem to get any better. HAHA. So yeah, then we finally discussed about it and stuff.

Aqilah gave a good idea about our masthead/title of newspaper and it looks damn nice. Seriously seh, we were so stressed out. I was more stressed out than before. My pencils and pens were scattered all over the damn floor. Stationeries all over the place and papers strewn all over. Everyone's face damn stressed out. Haish. The brain hurts seh when you do all those thinking ): Haish, so brain taxing. Grr. The atmosphere was damn tense and quiet. Ish. Especially when there are some people just walking around and peeping peeping, ehem.

So. Done. The tension atmosphere was gone. Watched this scary movie and it was quite draggy. The reactions from others were funny :) Well, yeah. There's one part where this (naked) man suddenly appear in front of the car, looking horrible. Everyone started screaming like mad. Fuuh. Then they changed the movie since there're too many curses -.- It was getting at the very good part already! Where all the ghosts started popping out! Haish. In the end, they changed it to 'Coach Carter'. Haha, watched that show for like a millionth time. After that, the Gobstopper war occured! That Aqilah la, started taking out her Gobstopper then it fell :) So, we started throwing it to each other. That Faris also one more kind! Go and throw so far, bad aiming! Haish. Hannan was like, 'Eh, tak baik buang buang makanan! Kan makanan!' HAHA, Ustaz Hannan :) Faris throw the Gobstoppers non-stop seh. Ish. Innocent people also kena attacked. It was fun though :))

Okay, then the results part kicked in. The individual winners, congrats to all of you. Well, we didn't win any individual award or anything la. Then, after the second and third group results were announced, haish. We lost hope already la. We even drafted out a message to send to Cikgu already seh! It's already 2 pages long, and we were trying to write it in a way that won't hurt her too much. Chey. Then, they suddenly called our school. Unexpected. Silence.

Imagine our unglam faces /: Aqilah was like 'Seriously?' HAHA.

Dinner was pretty cool too. Awesome people :) Good job to all those other schools and all new friends :)

I miss Kem Obor ): Well, things don't last forever.

FALCON ♥♥

This probably is about how the sun was on the opposite side of the sky when I woke up this morning. And how my name looks wrong every time I write it until it's gotten to the point that I'm not even sure how to spell it. It's about how everything has been flying out of my control so that I can't remember how to walk without making a sound. Or how to hold on to the edges when my vision gets too blurry. This is almost certainly about how you live one and three fourth miles to the north of me but I forgot and slept facing the south last night so now I felt like I turned my back on you.

But really, this isn't about you.

It's about how I've subscribed to the same three magazines for three years now, and every time I open them I feel like I've seen it all before. And how today is like yesterday and four days before that. It's about how I'm a repeat stuck on repeat, and we're all the same, and I'm drowning in an ocean of those fluid lies and tired eyes. This is maybe almost completely about how my syllables sound like falsities every time I answer the phone trying to sound like I've grown up, and about how I'm hoping it's you while I'm sifting through message lists and memories.

But really, I promise, I promise this isn't about you.

It's about how I forget what I'm saying in the middle of sentences with complex compound structures. And how I'm not much at talking since I get nervous and my words stop making sense. It's about how I speak in different languages that all sound alike or like stutters. And how you're clinging to my ribcage telling me to wait. To breathe. To smile. This is absolutely about how you're like two fingers on my wrist checking for a pulse and about how you're substituting your own sort of rhythm to the crash course soundtrack of my life.

This probably isn't about you, but maybe every other movement it.

My Loveeeee ;D

My heart was in bondage and I thought I could die but then you gave my heart wings and taught me to fly. When I was backed in a corner and all hope was gone, you were the faith and love that helped me move on. When I was falling you caught me. When others thought I was useless you still bought me. When I was sad, lonely and gripped with fear you were there to brush away every tear. No one may know how much you mean to me but I can truly say that without you I'd never be. When I was scared and wanted to run away you were always the one that knew what to say. When I was hurt you were always there to heal. You are always concerned with how I feel. Whenever I felt confused and alone, you were there for me as if you had never gone. I once wondered why you're always there for me but now I realise it is because you are my best friend.

Sometimes, things just don't happen the way we want it to be.

Some say they start afresh in their lives. The truth is they couldn't really forget the past. And they just you know, pretended.to forget.

Campers! :D

Finally, COALS has ended. After 3 days of adventure and many more with the awesomest groupmates, I really miss the times. Being able to have so much fun and laugh along with Falcon, eating all of my meals with Falcon, going through every activity with Falcon, even bathing with Falcon(ahah!), sleeping with Falcon(some ah), playing games with Falcon, doing forfeits with Falcon, practicing with Falcon, performing with Falcon, cheering with Falcon and having so much fun with Falcon. Those are the memories that I will cherish forever. Falcon is the best (: Of course, Echo too! AHAH. Echo is Falcon's so called best friend ah! Always together, cheering together, even doing activities together and supporting each other. AHAH. Together, we're FALCHO (: I like.

Memories are for the young and old to share with others or just to hold until we need to remember when be it now or be it then we felt so good or shed a tear feel some love or angst or fear but bring together what we may store of days gone by and many more.

FALCON, I LOVE ALL OF YOU. EVERY STINKING ONE OF YOU. AHHAH.

Going to Kem Obor with this makcik :)

I want to tell you that I've been sleeping less but dreaming more. I want to tell you that I've been waking up cold listening to the weather fold in and out of itself as the wind knocks on my windowpane. So while I'm wrapped up in not enough sleep, listening to my dreams and reality collide, I'm waiting for the winter to come and the snow to swallow us whole. Since I'm sick of watching autumn paint the world better colours as you stay this same too-pale-sheet-of-white which always make your smile seems less bright. And as I fall for you, I have to remember that I'm nothing like those maple leaves. I'm not that beautiful and you're nothing like that swirling breeze, you can't catch me.

I want to know what I'm supposed to do with a mess like you. It's like you're always moving too fast, and I can never remember the exact contours of your face. So while you're streaking by me in a ribbon of glittering lights and quickening breaths, I just want to know how those outlines even contain you. Or what words would ever describe you. I want to know how you can seem like such a disaster, but at the end of the day, I still want you.

I want you to know that you sound like the colour blue. Like skies crashing into the oceans. Like rain mixing with tears. Like the whole world spinning too fast and colliding with constellations. You're like a chemical reaction of please-dont-leave-me and undeniably dangerous unpredictability. You're the other half to my current one car collision, and I want the crash so badly. I want to count my bruises with you sitting beside me on the concrete. I'll take scraped knees and dslocated bones if I don't have to be alone. I want you to know that maybe you're a wreck but you're the very best part of me.

Watching Ariel the Mermaid now :) DisneyChannel.

(My week so far.)

HELLO!

Okay, you all know the story Momo Love right? Seriously, this is the genius brother. Who is the cutest/hottest among the four overprotective brothers. He's hot! But of course my JungYongHwaOppa is hotter la, duh! His name is Sphinx! Damn cool right?! I know. Like mat saleh celup mane like that! Me and Rasyidah damn crazy seh. She ah, start first! Aiyoo. HAHA. I love his specs. Bah. Kay, wtv.

HAHA. Cute right the animations of my Jung Yong Hwa Oppa! AHAH. Wowzers. OMG, he's freaking hot la seh! Seriously, but he's going to be hurt in the story! Confirm one! The sweet/nice/awesome/gorgeous/hot one is always the one who gets hurt. Bah. Saddening life. Who will not like them seh?! Haish. I have over 70+ pictures of him in my laptop lah! Awesome ttm. He's soooo MINE! (: I also have HongKi's pictures. AHAH. This story is so awesome shitzo. OMG, seriously. This story is damn addictive and so awesome! ;D I loveeeeeee Jung Yong Hwa Oppa truckloads! :D

My lappy wallpaperrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! ;D

Streaming results out. Pure History SSGeog Chemistry Physics (: Might be with $8! (: LOVE.

A.N.JELL! :D

The wonders of the sun lies in the mystery of the sky. How it rises up to meet you then hides and say goodbye. The mysteries of the moon in the night are so clear. It's circle changing with time, then it's original form reappears. The trees were so green, the sky was so blue, the clouds were so white. Our world was so beautiful. But this is not the world we see today, at least I don't see the world still that way. People are fighting, people are crying and hope is falling astray. In a world with such madness, how could you see? But everyday when coming home, I return and I see you. Your smile fills the darkness withing my heart. Your smile calms my shaken soul. Your smile warms me and makes me feel alive. Your smile is my sun. In a world with such madness, I can still see. That you being in this world, is really all I need.